Been dealing with my grandpas Death. My parents are very religious pentecostal pastors. Youngest Male out of 3 older Brothers and a Younger Sister. Grew up really close to my family until I came out of the age 19. Since then we grew apart and was best for me not to speak to them. Now turning 26 my grandpa who was really close to me passed, This self-potrait shows the battle within myself. It is hard to accept the truth. Truth being that it has been best for us to part ways. Even if I were close they would disapprove of my life style. They think I'm "Choosing" to be this way and "Choosing" to hurt them. As much as it hurst, I have also made a new life for myself and have a family with the great friends I have made. I told my self "When life gives you 100 reasons to cry, I will give it 1000 to smile!" And I have more than 1000.